Last Grandfather...

Wrinkled fingers.
Long nails clipped.
Silent room. Closed in walls.
Awkward silence. Hot tears.
Childhood wagon walks.
Honesty. Apologies. Lord keeps us safe.
Deserving. Hell. Irony.
Questions. Thoughts.
One chicken leg. Butterfinger.
Orange juice. White. Blue. Straw.
Braves blanket. Fine white hair.
Petting—like a child.
Genuine smiles & laughs.
Taken care of...
You are now.
Dog. Bear. Odd.
Mother. Father.
They may not have that at home.
Be there.
Absolute realization.
Jokes. Sarcasm.
Literalism. Deserted.
Last goodbye. Love.
Pet name...
Afterthoughts.
Limited Hours.
Moments.
Immeasurable worth.
One man's life.


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  1. Jessica HansonThursday, June 18, 2020 at 10:30:00 PM CST

    Update: passed away Dec. 17, 2015

    https://www.legacy.com/obituaries/name/walter-lance-obituary?pid=176958578

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